Thursday, April 23, 2009

'It's been awhile.....'

And now that Staind song is in my head...(better then copacabana which has been driving me bonkers all day!)...Aaron Lewis truly has a sexy singing voice.....at least he did when I saw him many.....many.......years ago.

Uhhh.....uhhhh......helloooo.....is this thing on.....maybe it's better if it's not.  Better to get it all out or keep it all in.....how much to share is always a struggle.  You let it all out and leave yourself completely vulnerable.  You keep it all in and you systematically lock yourself away from everyone.  What's the balance between sharing how you feel about a situation with someone and holding those feelings in.  Generally, when you care for someone you avoid inflicting any kind of pain or discomfort if possible.  But since it's uncomfortable to you as well you choose to say nothing out of a sense of self preservation.  Not so altruistic is it.  Personally, I prefer the truth. Even if there's confusion and no real answer, I want to know what the other person is thinking.  And when people are not forthcoming I wonder how far to push.  How patient are you supposed to be when you are effected by uncertainty in a relationship......whatever the relationship....friend, lover, coworker.