Just cleaning up and posting some old unfinished posts.....

My toes were in the Pacific this morning.  A little over a month ago I was watching the sunrise in the Florida Keys.   The warm, clear, blue water of the Atlantic at my feet. In between these two oceans were: mountains, friends, family, the kindness of strangers, not so kind strangers, long lonely roads, roads I hope to make it back to, self acceptance, gratitude, wonder, and a herd of buffalo. 

I've come full circle so to speak.  I got back a few weeks ago and started back to work. Broke as hell!!!   And though it all seems surreal as I sit at my desk sorting through old email, it's familiar.  It's consuming.  It's thrown me back into a state of uncertainty about what to do next.  Best to take action in those moments of clarity because they don't usually last very long!! 

This little adventure was not what I had expected.  When I planned my 'escape' it was with thoughts of exotic places, and foreign languages.  Lofty ideas of traipsing around the world.  It turns out that wasn't what this trip was going to be about.  That said....experiencing the US was more of an adventure than I had thought it would be. And I am grateful to have had the opportunity.  When I left it was with so many things left unfinished, and tidying things up a bit took longer than I thought. Lining up those damn ducks just seems to elude me......one of these days those ducks are going to be in for a big surprise which ends with a big dinner.  Of course I've learned...over...and..over...and over again that you can plan all you want but.....well......you've heard all the the sayings. And though I know that....I still try to plan....silly sarah....but I have learned with traveling, as with most things to try and check the expectations at the door or else I end up in a world of hurt.  I still fail miserably at this on occasion but, not so much with this trip. And it's always later, usually when you least expect it, that you find out the significance of your experiences.  It has been a strange journey.